Sunday, August 11, 2013

Little Love

Zak had his company party this past Saturday so we were very fortunate to have him all to ourselves for two weekend days rather than just one. We went into town Saturday morning to check out the Farmer's Market and grab some breakfast. Later, we went to Z's company party at the beach and enjoyed loads of good food and drank beer and swam! I love the people Zak works with and it was definitely an amazing day.












Sunday was much more relaxed. We checked the apple trees and swam at the beach. I made goofy faces and silly sounds to entertain little O. Z and I even enjoyed a couple hours alone in town (sushi and a chocolate frappe!) while Aunt Marin watched the babe. 

The air is starting to taste like Fall. It seems too soon but at the same time it seems like the exact right time. I love Fall more than anything, but I think we'll have to squeeze in loads more beach time over the next couple weeks. I can't believe Summer's already flown by, it always works that way though. I feel as though I push off summer time activities always thinking there will be more time and then before I know it, the season is at its end. Throughout this month, the air will grow more crisp with each passing day. Soon, I'll pull out my coats and tights and boots. I'm excited for it all- enjoying the last bit of summer to the absolute fullest and the excitement of the season to come.

Friday, August 9, 2013

Breastfeeding at 15 months

One day old, 15 months old.



In honor of World Breastfeeding Week and National Breastfeeding Month, I'd like to write a little post on our nursing story. I'm definitely passionate about nursing and try to encourage new mothers to breastfeed. Unfortunately (like with any parenting choice), there is much drama surrounding nursing. Everyone seems to have something to say about another parent's ways. Nursing too much, too little, too long, weaning too soon, in public, not in public, etc. It seems to me that if we were all to mind our own business a little more and accept each other's choices, then we, as mothers, could support one another more readily. Not to say that there aren't specific points of view that annoy me. Recently, a friend had a baby and when reading through her Instagram comments I read that she chose not to breastfeed because she thought it was "creepy." This sort of uneducated decision makes my stomach turn and makes me feel a little sad for the state of humanity. We're so far from our roots that some women consider breastfeeding to be creepy. That truly frightens me.

As a mother who is passionate about nursing and doing what's best, I try to educate as I learn of a friend's pregnancy but at that point it is the other mother's choice to act on the information I've shared. It's the other mother's choice to do some research of their own. Some of my mumma friends truly tried to nurse and things didn't quite work out. I sympathize with that and wish that I had maybe done more to help. Many times I feel that a breastfeeding relationship falls through because of the support system around that mother. My mom was a LLL leader when I was a little and I remember nursing my dolls. I had a 2 inch wide binder filled with bits of paper and brochures on nursing when I was about 5. I was formula fed because of things the hospital did beyond my mother's consent after I was born, but as a young girl I knew I wanted to breastfeed because my mother became so passionate about it.

When Odin was born, I said I would nurse for the first year. Odin turned one 3 months ago and he's actually nursing as I type this. I'm not sure how much longer we will go, but I know we'll both stop when we're ready. We'll keep nursing until it is no longer working for our family or until Odin decides he's through. I love breastfeeding and I love the relationship it's created. Don't get me wrong, there are weak moments. Often. Sometimes I'd like to be able to go out on the town with Zak, but Odin nurses to sleep and through the night. That drives me pretty crazy, honestly. The work it would take to transition him away from that seems to be more trouble than it's worth. For every frustrated night I have, there are twenty nights where there's no other place I'd rather be.

Odin was born ten pounds, was an eager nurser, and had gained two pounds by his one week check up. I am very fortunate in the fact that I have never had an issue with breastfeeding. Teething was a breeze because we nursed right through it. He bit once or twice and that was that. Odin and I seem to have a very gentle breastfeeding relationship and I'm very grateful. This is what we chose and I am very happy with that choice.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

The Sling Diaries Love + Adventure, Vol. III: Kinship












































One glance at the man I love as he nuzzles our son and my heart beats harder, echoing the rain and it's thunder. Feeling warm breath on my neck as my little boy sleeps on my chest after nursing makes my heart beat more rhythmically than it's ever drummed before. I am very consistently reminded that this is where my heart belongs, under vast skies of stars and dust sleeping between these two.

Odin seems to have an innate appreciation for the offerings of the earth. I hope to continue to nurture that appreciation. I hope to show him wonderment and surprise. I hope to show him grace and gratefulness. I hope to encourage him to be forever curious and to recognize the world and our connections within it.

Everything we lose is given to something and someone else. Through our sweat, toil, and strife we give birth to our brothers and sisters. The apple trees are filling to the brim with fruits from the womb of our mothers and grandmothers. Our trees, fruits, and vegetables grow from dust as we have done and our ancestors before us. We are as much connected with the bee buzzing from flower to flower as we are to our parents, uncles, and aunts.


It's been quite some time since we've slept amongst the moon and the stars and I think this weekend was much needed. I often try and remind myself of our origins, to find my footing and feel grounded. I am reminded by a beautiful sunrise or a fruitful garden harvest that we originated from this earth, she is in all of us and we are forever hers. 

She and we are kindred souls, we always have been and forever will be.


And as a bonus, here's a little video clip of Odin practicing his own sort of grounding:


I am wearing Sakura Bloom's custom luxe in Shiitake.
You can find our previous Sling Diaries here.